Responsibility
With knowledge comes responsibility. What am I to do with this revelation. To blur the line between the roles of the heart and mind is quite mind-boggling. It doesn’t quite make sense to me, especially when I always have the opinion that the mind cannot be emotionalised and the heart rationalised (what then moderates the thoughts and emotions?). To be shown the truth that the heart does think is a little too startling a concept to me. I don’t know why I only see it just. Perhaps it’s illumination, perhaps I’ve known it with my mind all along but never understood the deeper reality and weight of the truth. But now I see it with my heart; it’s a way of seeing, a way of knowing. It’s amazing how an old truth becomes renewed.
The responsibility would be to probe deeper. Deeper into the heart’s motives and intentions, to discover our truest beliefs, attitudes. It’s a bit like what C.S. Lewis wrote about on Incarnation (see previous posts), to delve deep and bring to the surface into the light those secret thoughts. The tendency is for the mind to try grapple with the unknown, trying to fathom just what is going on in our lives. No matter how we try to rationalise it, our coping mechanism fails us, and we go into a vicious cycle. With this revelation, I learn that to unlock life’s mysteries, there is a new tangent. Instead of trying to make sense of the unclear and unknown, search the heart that we may be freed from the shackles of our secret thoughts. Search the heart that we may know what we truly think, and thus feel. Our thoughts do shape the character of our feelings. How does one begin this search. Where does one begin. How to go about it. Who will guide us.
Psalm 139:23-24
Search me, O God, and know my heart: try me, and know my thoughts: and see if there be any wicked way in me, and lead me in the way everlasting.
