My mind can be too active. Sometimes the sense I make to myself tears me in a very different direction my heart wants to make; these two organs always make indefatigable pursuits unauthorised by me hahaha! The decision-making process I go through was always weighted and conflicted. Thank God He broke the vicious cycle! What a burden lifted! My mind’s renewed and heart set free! I’ve learnt to watch out for the movements of my heart, let go of stray thoughts, reject Satan’s condemning and suggestive whisperings, tune into the still small voice which is calming and brings peace. It’s pure and sweet abandonment. My mind hasn’t stopped thinking, my heart hasn’t stopped feeling, but now I’ve handed the key over to my Gatekeeper.

Will God Explain Why?

We sometimes imagine that God must eventually "sit us down" and "explain" his mysterious ways to our satisfaction. Let us suppose we have never seen a skyscraper. We discover a whole city block surrounded by a board fence. Finding a knothole, we peer inside. Huge earth movers are at work; hundreds of men in hard hats are busy at mysterious tasks; cranes are being moved into place; truckloads of pipes and cement are being unloaded. What on earth is happening? There is nobody around to answer our questions. If we wait long enough, nobody will need to. When we see the finished building, all the incomprehensible activity becomes comprehensible. "Oh! So this is what that was for."