Pastor Ann preached on making peace with our past.
Among the points she mentioned, I recall these:
1) Accept the reality.
2) Feel the loss.
3) Live with it.
4) Choose to forget when you forgive.
5) Change the pattern of responding to the pain.
5) Move on with the grace of God.
6) Pain defines us. We either trivialise or magnify pain.
My reflections:
Why does pain lock people in a vicious cycle that sends them on an emotional upheaval, with their feelings held ransom? They can do everything logical to try break this vicious cycle, but it is not always successful. Anything constructive they do does not seem to alleviate their pain but it (the pain) will only grow louder when the activity ends. Perhaps the pain has not grown any softer. It just gets drowned out. Like what Pastor Ann said, the pain gets covered over, not dealt with in depth. I think the pain weighs on us until we wish for our hearts to stop beating. Ps Ann said, any broken vessel in God’s hands is a powerful vessel. When God heals us, we will be shinier, and out of our mouths will flow words of wisdom. When she was in consultancy, she would encourage her clients to help themselves with concrete steps, but those steps could only bring them thus far. But we have Jesus. Don’t live like people without hope. Trust in God’s heart.
Continue later. Bell’s gone.
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The pain numbs us. Words become cold comfort. Yet we still must persevere, and continue to hear these words. These words are a soothing balm to the pain. We need them–words of comfort and of hope. The pain is not forever although it feels this way. Things WILL look better. Borrowing Angela’s words, the healing process is very painful (I remember my physical wound which incapacitated me, handicapped and inconvenienced me greatly). Nonetheless, one is healing alright.
I want to say this. It takes a lot of willpower to stay in this healing process (one can always bail and distract ourselves with work, relationships, drugs, cigarettes, sports, alcohol, etc.).
Understanding one’s threshold of pain, one’s response to pain, acceptance of pain, and the knowing that it will go away help us keep afloat I find when we have full knowledge of all these. One also needs to know that one can only do so much in our own limited power. We need to keep turning to God for strength and comfort, the supernatural kind. Keep alert mentally, perservere in the good deeds, and our hearts will soon catch up. Paraphrasing Tozer, the one who has gone through great depths of pain understands God’s healing power.
There will come a turning point which will release us from this pain. I was just thinking, perhaps before we reach this point, we need to keep turning. Like the starfish that is flipped over, we need to keep on turning. Ardously but surely, we will get there. To borrow but a cliché, one can be down but not out.
Just a thought, are we doing anything to keep ourselves locked in the vicious cycle? Are we clinging onto false hopes? Do we latch onto this hope so tightly that in the end we exhaust ourselves with this grip, which handles us instead of us handling it. Only time can understand the mystery of God’s plan.
Turn your eyes upon Jesus
Look full in His wonderful face
And the things of this earth will grow strangely dim
In the light of His glory and grace